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If you'd remember me

2010-08-21T12:59:00.000+08:00

This is the 215th post here at Paintedredwalls. And 215 will be the lucky number to bring this blog to an end :-)

Im moving on to another site.

Reasons:

Blogger is problematic.
I dont want this particular person to read my blog.
I think a new space breeds a new beginning.

2010-08-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

Wait until you got that smart then say people stupid. Ok? :-)

Happy sunny 45th

2010-08-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

National Dayeyeyeyeyeyeyeyey ;)

I spent my National day....

Waking up at 7am
Having kuey chap at Bukit Timah market with granny and Bobs fam
Visiting Farmart
Visiting some vege farm (Where we encountered a talking parrot)
Home for sleep.
Sitting infront of the com for 9 hours

Mum was asking me if I wanted to watch the NDP parade on tv but I was like "no" since Ive watched it 2 Saturdays back. I always find it a waste of time whenever people watch movies/tv series twice. I only did something so silly 2 years ago when I watched one of Jack Neo's production, Money Not Enough 2, twice in the same day. I caught it with my friends in the afternoon and with my fam at night. I think I almost fell asleep when I watched it the 2nd time cos it was already kinda late, plus I already knew the whole story.

Bahhhhh, waste of $$$

Back to the point. I skipped the live telecast of the NDP parade, hoping to make my night productive (since the 3 days that just flashed passed wasnt productive abit) but ended up watching youtube videos till 9pm. Then I went to watch 最火搭档. It's all bbfl's fault cos the first episode I caught was when he didnt want to miss the show so we all went to Gary's house to watch. And I got addicted. Urgh.

So it's time for some serious work like.... Math.

Heading down to Vivo tomorrow. Yipee yaya yipee yipee ya.

I wish school would stop for at least a month cos I think Im more productive at home than in school. I promise. Though there're like distractions everywhere at home but still, I think I learn/do more at home :) Hope school closes for some reason!

2010-08-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

Blogger's having problems, again. so I had to use Photobucket.

WHICH OBVIOUSLY SUCKS LAH.

Frosty sunshine

2010-08-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

Another week's gone and... it has been very a very tiring week for me.

I had plenty of tests, I had mock papers, I had supplymentary, I had chocolate, I had pimples. The pimples were huge and everyone was talking about it cos I had one on each cheek. I always have 2 pimples at a go, one on each cheeks. I think it's to make face look more balanced. Hahaha. You know if I were to have 2 pimples on one cheek, my cheeks wont look like they are proportional/symmetrical.

Took a couple of photos and videos today. Shall upload them tomorrow or when Im free. (They're up on facebook already) Anyway we went to Jojo's house this afternoon for a movie marathon. But we ended up watching only How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. And the male lead looked cute enough to hug but Ljm said his hair was too curly. Nah, still cute.

We had steamboat for dinner and went to one of their balconies to chit chat. We started doing silly things and recording KUSO videos. Which I enjoyed a lot :) Though Im always the one who's either the third party or a rapist or murderer or macho man. Yea hahahaha.

K that's all for today. Im suppose to wash up right now and go have some food. Im feeling so hungry urgh. :( Amanda told me she cant sleep with an empty stomach and I suggest her to eat a bowl of laksa before she sleeps everyday. Haha :)

P/s: We played Twister too. Which was as fun as everything we did today.

Today was better than better than better than better than better than better..

Live our dreams, fly our flag

2010-08-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

FYI, Bobs one was a 5 star streak or something and mine was a tanker (with a Singapore flag at the end of it)

Well, obviously my little cute soldier didnt turn out as cute as it was supposed to be. He broke his flag. :-(

I've got to stop breaking my daily cleansing/moisturising routine cos I've got 1,2,3,4,5,6 blemishes.

(^) PICTURE OF THE DAY

Well, umm.. Hello.

Actually I do have a few more photos but it says "service rejected" when I upload them here so yea... SUCK. Doesnt matter, I have them up on Facebook.

Met Bobs at Great World City around 4pm. We had tea at Cedele and talked about things under the sun. Well, not literally under the sun of course. Their caramelised banana pancake was delifabuwonderlicious. Partly cos I love anything cooked with bananas, like banana roti prata, banana waffle, etc etc. We had some sandwiches which was good too, but still, pancake best.

Then my third aunt came and we cabbed down to Padang. We were urshered to the Green zone which was under the sun when we reached. Was pretty hot but I didnt mind cos I would rather it be hot and sunny than rainy and gloomy. Anyway, the parade started and we had a great time there. :) Bobs and I had temporary tattoos on our faces, I had one soldier one on the back of my hand too. (Im currently staring at my soldier and I think it has strinked. I dont remember it being so tiny when we were at Padang just now...)

The whole event ended at 8.20pm. So we walked to Liang court to have Ichiban Tei for dinner. After dinner, we just sat down and reminisced. I miss those times we spent at China when I was 12. We had so much fun back then and all I remember was being happy happy and happy.

That's all for today.

Im gonna go wash up right now and probably do some homework or revision for next week's tests. Hmmm or just sleep.

I think I'll just sleep. Haha.

P/s: I think the little soldier on my hand is really cute. It keeps getting distorted whenever I stretch my thumb.

Just whimsical

2010-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

(^) My favourite picture!

Was trying out the effects of my Wildfire during Night Class today. Today's Night Class felt like forever but it was fine cos I had endless supply of food. But today was productive, well, semi-productive. Aline and I were really focused during the first hour, but then we started fooling around eventually. I remember laughing non-stop w/o knowing what was the joke about which was very funny at that point of time cos I was laughing while wondering what's so funny.

Oh yea. I finally brought Sticky to school. Was suppose to finish the whole packet before I reach home today but yea.. obviously I didnt. Hate leaving sweets in my room cos it isnt exactly cold and dry in here (though it has been raining a lot lately..) so the pandas stick together (that explains why it's called Sticky). Which I dont like, a lot.

Will try to finish them up by next Monday thou.

Bought strawberry bonbons and pressed apple and mango juice at Marks and Spencer yesterday. The bonbons were really tough and it kept sticking onto my molar teeth. Bah.. It was even worst after I put it in the fridge. Now I have to "defrost" it before eating, haha fml. The pressed apple mango juice tasted like... soursop? I dont know. It's just weird to have apple and mangoes together. I didnt know why I bought them, but since I already did, might as well just take it. Might be of good use when I... need something yucky to drink? Haha.

I shouldnt be here right now cos I bet I'll have a hard time getting up tomorrow. I hate waking up when my dream's not yet over.

Nutty ee eh la

2010-07-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

Visited The Body Shop and had their Spa Wisdom Japan. The therapy lasted for 90 mins but it really felt like only 60 mins. Had a happy time there cos they were playing soft music and the and all the lotions and scrubs smelt delicious. Hmmm :)

Spent today's PE dancing with EARS. Shanqi was teaching us the basic steps to ballet and I absolutely failed them. Haha I dont have dance cells in me. They said I looked like a bunny. (Bunny also a cute bunny what :p ) Anyway had a great time during PE.

Was having a terrible tummyache during Math period but Mdm Lee said that no one will be allowed to go to the toilet. Basket... The pain lasted for almost an hour before it was time for recess. It hurt a lot but the pain began to wear off so phew.. We were talking about a specific medicated oil advertisment and Eunice, Jiamin and I said "我刚才还 poot 了一声!" harmoniously. Hehe.

我讨厌想起那些你从来没放在心上的事

Honey honeybee

2010-07-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

Was at Paragon last Saturday. Armani Exchange was having sales so it was mad crowded in there.

Have you guys ate dried apricots before? The seed inside it can be crushed cos there's a nut inside the seed. I personally like the nut more than the apricot itself. Haha.

Today was fine, other than having the occasional sharp pain at the back of my right hand. It was so bad that I couldnt even take up a pen. I panicked cos for the past few months, my hands were easily numbed whenever I hold things in a fix position for quite awhile (Eg. holding itouch while I walk down the hill). But the pain was gone after an hour, so it wasnt that bad.

I feel nauseous right now. Haha, cos I ate one loaf of greentea bread just now. I think it's indigestion cos I remember feeling this way when I had 3 bowls of 卤肉饭 in Taiwan. That was mad lah, but then I will still do the same if I'ld to go Taiwan again. So Im having Vitagen (whilst studying for tomorrow's test) right now. i assume it helps digestion since it contains permitted stabilisers which should help to stablise my digestive system right?

K I was just kidding.

I hope I will never get back my Chem mock test. Mrs Chew, you can eat it up. Im fine with that :)

안녕

2010-07-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

VERY HAPPY TODAY.

RACIAL HARMONY DAY 2010 ♡

Semi-happy.

2010-07-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

Was looking through my photo albums and came across this photo. Everybody looked so happy. Haha, my brother even looks like a hamster with his unkempt hair.

Today was.... semi-happy.

Geography test was ok. And I found out I have the tendency to write down everything I memorised even when a blind person can see how many marks that question awards. That's why I usually get a stiff neck after a georg test. Haha, had got to scribble through the rest of the questions cos time was running out. I wrote profusely and gripped the pen too tightly.

During today's Olevel CL LC, the rain was heavy and suey suey I was made to sit at the table beside the backdoor. So I spent almost 99% of my time in the room looking at the looming clouds. I was afraid I might see a streak of lightning but then I just wanted to try my luck- hoping I wouldnt see one. Haha.

Rainy weather everyday. Very cold. Very very cold. A hot bath in the morning is almost like heaven. But I suspect my maid has been using the hot water every morning to clean the toilet. Cos the water is always sibei cold if I dont turn on the heater. Maybe she likes to get a taste of heaven every morning too. Hahahaha.

I sleep with frozen toes every night. Brrr...

Digging into the memories.

2010-07-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

我们没有在一起。可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方。

Red rad rad,

2010-07-18T21:05:00.001+08:00

HOLA HTC WILDFIRE!

(please pretend you didnt see the pimple on my forehead)

Bought a new phone! Bought a new phone! Bought a new phone!

Bought the HTC Wildfire at Paragon yesterday. :) But they ran out of stocks for the red colour one, so I had to go down to Plaza Singapura this morning to collect it. Hate it when M1 doesnt restock their stocks.

Had our lunch at The Manhattan Fish Market while waiting for our turn. Their garlic mussels are great. Best thing I had today. Haha. Though I thought I might have lost my sense of taste after getting my tongue scald by the dory fish. Sibei hot.

Did a little shopping at Carrefour after collecting my phone. Didnt have the mood to shop around cos I was dying to play with my new phone! Of course... Hahaha.

Sorry about the lack of photos these days. Or rather the opulence of canwhored photos. Haha, my life has been rather..... boring these days. But I kinda like it this way. Though everyday isnt productive but at least it isnt hectic. Just nua around.

Racial harmony day is 3 days away! Aline collected the traditional korean costume at JB yesterday morning. Hehe, muah muah. Kamsahhamida! (Dont try correcting me. I dont care if it isnt spelt like this.........)

Salut!

2010-07-17T00:56:00.001+08:00

Happy Friday. Almost happy.

School was easy. :) Oh, heard a really loud thunder when we were doing our Emath mock paper. I thought the sky was gonna crack. It was really loud and ear-piercing. The rain then pelted mercilessly for the next one hour. Today's English lesson was interesting cos Ms Chew started talking about cultures and the extent of measures people went to to control mortality rate. SEW THE VAGINA. Hahaha!

Spent 4 hours nuaing at Aline's house. Her place is the ideal place for long chats or just sleeping in a corner. :)

Watched Despicable Me with Yinchoon during the evening. The show was mad funny and this lady that was sitting somewhere near us was laughing hysterically and somehow she reminds me of Shanqi. Shanqi made me laughed till I cried and had a tummyache yesterday. Keke.

Kimchi (^___^)

2010-07-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

Shall be wearing the Korean traditional costume on Racial Harmony. :)

Deactivate the pain.

2010-07-15T19:50:00.001+08:00

ME HAPPY COS THURSDAY IS BYEBYE. ♡

THURSDAY IS GONE. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? NOT EXACTLY GONE YET, BUT SCHOOL'S OVER FOR TODAY. I MANAGED TO TAHAN ALL THE WAY TILL AMATH REMEDIAL AND GEOGRAPHY SUPP. GIVES MYSELF A PAT.

Anyway, Jojo is gonna make me some good food. Oh how I love people who love to cook. Cos I hate cooking and they are my ultimate choice for good food and a happy tummy. She owes me mee pok gan, fried rice, chicken rice and some muffins (with Yingshuang). The list will go on..

Seem to have lost most of my motivation these days. I'ld spend my afternoons doing things that arent productive. Then when I finally start on something that would finally make my day productive, I'll find myself getting into a zombified mode, then of course there comes sleep. Maybe that's whyI have a big head. Am not exercising my brain enough.

Gah...

2010-07-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

Was looking through some online shops and came across one that was selling branded wallets. And I was blind enough to overlook the prices before scrolling the page down. They cost approx. $180 each.

I just kept scrolling and picking wallets that were chio enough to eat. Now my heart is itching but I can do nothing about it. :(

I'll be back with more about my life. Currently, it has been boring and I feel myself moulding. Plus, I do so much of missing you these days I think I hurt my brain.

You're like a hard candy with a surprise centre.

2010-07-11T02:35:00.001+08:00

Im currently typing in the dark. Kinda cool cos it feels cosy in bed.

Went Skape Park for the Flashlightbatteries flea market event. Was pretty good, managed to do some good shopping. Though the weather was kinda hot for a drizzling afternoon. :)

Was craving for some meepok since morning, so we headed to 313 for dinner. The meepok at Food Republic wasnt that tasty, kinda disappointed cos I was practically thinking of some hot-piping delicious meepok for the whole afternoon. They were hot-piping, and indeed meepok, but they missed out on the delicious part. But was too hungry to giam. Even had chendol after that. Haha, but Elaine's ice kachang was so much better lah.

Met up with my relatives for some tong shui after parting with the girls. Had cheng teng. Something's wrong with my digestive system today. Working hard today huh? Hahaha, I can still manage a bowl of laksa now yknow. Very well, shall leave the space for tomorrow morning. Having breakie with the fam! <3

Its funny that I spend 5 days wishing that the weekends would arrive soon, then in a blink of an eye, Im gonna start counting down again. But school's going on fine these days. Haha, that's... weird.

Anyway, Im looking forward to National Day. Are you? :)

Good day, happy me.

2010-07-10T00:01:00.001+08:00

Today was good. Well, not really.

We only had 3 subjects for school today so school was easy. Enjoyed my English mock exam cos, WTF I love such essays. Saving the marine life and stuff. Humpbacks. Hahaha. Anyway, school was fun today.

Was contemplating if I should attend the NP DPA TALK but then gave it a miss in the end. My very kind friends were set on a task to help me record the whole talk down. Haha, I bet they didn't lah! Talk big only! Haha. Btw, I managed to draft out my short essay but it isn't ready for submition, YET.

Y'know what, the technique to the short essay is to be as buey pai seh as you can. Say you're smart, you think fast, you are a great listener, you're trilingual, you can type an SMS while putting on eyeliner, you can eat 10 bananas in a minute, you can do HGSS amath paper and not go mad. Yea just whatever that impresses. It doesn't matter, honesty isn't the best policy, and this just isn't the right time to practise modesty.

我想我会永远记得你。不是因为我会一直喜欢你，而是因为你是第一个对我那么好但却从来没对我心动过的人。

Hola!

2010-07-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

School's going on fine. Except I choked on my phelgm this morning. I thought I was gonna choke to death, no kidding. I was going "Cough. Cough.. Cough cough. Cough! COUGH! COUGH COUGH COUGH!" I swallowed the phelgm and saved my own life in the end. Hurrah!

Well, Ive been coughing since this morning and I dont think Im gonna stop anytime soon. I seem to be a walking disease/bacteria. I cough, and then people will rub their noses and look at me and show their disgusted face while trying to look not that offensive. Dont really like how people rub their noses whenever someone sniffs or coughs. Scared my saliva poke into your nostrils ah? I poke, I poke, I poke poke poke ah!

Am quite excited for tonight's World Cup semi-finals. Germany VS Spain. I bet on Spain and will be able to get some quick bucks if Spain win. So... ir a España!

Say hola to Miffy!

You guys are awesome people.

2010-07-05T12:20:00.001+08:00

Everyone's so nice. Teehee, thanks for the well wishes k? Xx.

Was already feeling unwell when I was on the way home on Friday. Was then caught in the rain which totally triggered my fever. Began coughing like some ding dong but thought that i would be fine after some rest. But no, the 'rest' didn't help.

Woke up at 9 in the morning of Sat. Had tuition, and zonked out at 11am. Then started to 吃饱睡睡饱吃 all the way till Sunday morning. By then I was already a very sick cat, so mum brought me to the doctor. Had my medicine and went back to my '吃饱睡睡饱吃' mode.

Fever is gone now, but I've yet to complete my antibiotics course. Feel like getting a mc for tomorrow. Will see how. >:)

Gonna bring Mimi to the vet later.

Hear the pitter patter

2010-07-01T20:08:00.001+08:00

Today @ 1157h: Suddenly thought of you.
Today @ 1200h: It has started raining.
Today @ 1218h: Just heard a thunder.
Today @ 1229h: Rain is getting heavier and heavier.
Today @ 1231h: I love the rain.
Today @ 1330h: Sun's coming out, but still raining.
Today @ 1422h: Rain stopped.
Today @ 1453h: Thought of you again.
Today @ 1455h: Ms Pam wearing pink eyeshadow today.
Today @ 1658h: Dentention finally ended.
Today @ 1725h: Bought kaya waffle.
Today @ 1753h: Saw a spider on my way home. Teeny weeny one.
Today @ 1803h: Having a splitting headache.
Today @ 1804h: Broke my hairband.

Today has been rather easy.

4th day of school, 2nd time late. Had to serve detention after school, and was struggling to keep myself awake. I wish I would stop being so sleepy all the time. Anyway, my 400 word essay gets shorter each time I serve detention. And, it's kinda dumb to think of ways to punish yourself if you would to commit the same offence again. Dumb okay.

Tomorrow's MT oral. Im getting the butterflies in my tummy already. Should call up the pest company to get them out. Nah, not funny.

Today @ 2004h: I thought of you again.
Today @ 2005h: I wonder if you find me irritating.
Today @ 2007h: Parents are back. Makan time. >:)

2010-06-29T19:02:00.002+08:00

As promised...

2010-06-29T16:09:00.003+08:00

Probably just no feel.

Today's Chemistry lesson was awesome. Laughed hard enough. Am happy. Such sunshine.. >:)

2010-06-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

You don't like me. You like her (whoever that her is. You have never told me any or your secrets one leh.)

I understand.

She might be the strong girl who never sheds a tear. But I can be sucha crybaby at times. I cry when I'm sad, I cry when I'm angry. I cry when I'm happy, I cry while I laugh. I can easily be the most emotional person you've ever met in your life and I'll never be surprise. It's just how my tear ducts work, and I've never tried changing it. Crying might not help do any good, but I always cry when I feel like it cos I'm afraid of times where I feel so down and demoralised but just no tears would fall to let me feel that I'm alive.

She might be decisive and clear of what she wants and what she does. But I'm pretty bad at that. I'm indecisive, probably many would know. Just like everyone, I do plan for my future and I look back in life. I plan two choices at a go, and will only decide which path to take only when there's a need to. I can be really unsure of what I want, but I definitely know know how to follow my heart. Afterall, they say "follow your heart, not your mind".

She might be able to keep calm at times when everything is in a mess or when something is urgent. But no, I get paranoid and I do things in a rash. My mind doesn't function really well when my heart isn't palpilating at the right pace. I do get breathless and then I do the crying. I may tend to do things in a rash and say things that I never really mean when I'm paranoid. But that's just normal though I usually look back in life and regret. I know I don't handle things well but I do make up for my mistakes.

She might be very firm on her principles and never wavers. But I do get really soft when it comes to feelings. I do have a soft spot for something and it makes my feelings waver. (I know that's bad, but everyone has their soft spot!) I do stand firm on my principles but I also do believe in giving it a try. "Never try never know", right? I'm not that much of a rigid person. I like giving things a try. (Dont talk to me bout sheesha. I was oblivious to its side effects but I admit I was in the wrong)

She might be the hard-to-get-type. The type that doesn't fall for sweet talks. But nah, I love sweet talks! <3 Spice things up a lot. It makes me happy and I give it back. I love sharing sweet talks. It's like, you make me happy, I'm happy, and I make you happy too. But of cause too much sweet talk can get a litle sick and fake. But sufficient amount of it does all good and no bad.

She might be that special one who got hold of the key. But I believe every heart has no key to it. It's forever open for people to stay in. But of course, you're the one who decides who stays, and who leaves.

I understand.

2010-06-27T01:37:00.001+08:00

Am I the first one to say such stuff to you? Probably not.

But you're the first one I've ever did that to. I used to be so firm on my principles; girls dont do the guys' job. But well, I did it anyway. Life's like that isnt it? You can never follow rules, and at times you might just do things against your principles. Do things that might even scare yourself.

But it's a load off my chest. I said what I wanted to say, I said what I mean, and I mean what I say.

Probably I'll get some good rest tonight. But I seriously doubt that. It's alright, I just need time. I dont believe time would heal, but ample time would give me a chance to really let go.

2010-06-26T20:44:00.003+08:00

Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don’t expect someone to read your mind and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out; half truths are no better than lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about; indifference hurts more than angry words.

(via Eletheowl)

If I ask you to stay, will you show me the way?

2010-06-26T18:12:00.004+08:00

You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. But I can’t just be your buddy, because as much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality it’s a bizarre form of torture and I’m just not willing to participate in it. So right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore.

(via Eletheowl)

I trust my instincts. And my instincts tell me that you're gonna fall for her over again. Kinda suck but what can I do? Just like you always say, "too bad" then.

That hurt pretty bad.

2010-06-22T15:48:00.001+08:00

Have you tried being nice but got insulted in the end?

I wished you were there cos I love talking to you no matter where or when. I wished you were there cos I didnt want to leave you out of any good and enjoyable chats. I wished you were there cos we had fun and I wanted you to have fun too.

I know how much you dislike smokers. Tobacco/Cigarettes/Sheeshas. You may have a million reasons to turn down smokers or to hate smokers. I know one of your reasons, and probably thats the main reason why smokers just turn you off. That incident might have hurt you deep down, make you lose someone close.

You sounded concerned and cared for me. At least to me. Ever since yesterday, you werent the only one who commented on me going Sheesha. I got scolded by friends who cared not as much as you, but enough to let me know they didnt want me to hurt myself. I recieved texts telling me the concequences of Sheeshaing. They probably werent people who were as close as we are, but they did tell me I was wrong and they fucking shit in my face.

But it's alright. Cos they forgived me.

I said I missed you while I was sheeshaing cos we talked and gossiped so much. And I knew it would be great if there were 4 of us. Like how it would be in school. I never thought of wanting you to be there to breathe in our smoke, to smoke or even take in all the 2nd hand smoke. Do you think I enjoy harming you? I hope your answer is no. But I seriously doubt that.

You may hate smokers cos they not only harm themselves but also the people around them. You may hate how I went sheeshaing when I used to say how I would never touch cigrattes or anything that would cause me to die an ugly death.

I admit. Yesterday I was tempted. I was in the wrong. But you didnt have to act like that when I said I wished you were there with us.

We are friends. We are close friends. Friends that dont ever wanna harm each other. You know I love you.

Trying it out.

2010-06-22T01:40:00.001+08:00

We went down to Haji Lane at around 3pm. We were like trapped in a maze cos there were so many small alleys there. But after spending an hour trying to find our way to some comfortable Sheesha shop, we know the place by heart already. Haha. Anyway, the weather was mad hot. >:( All sheesha starts at 6 so we had to go down to FEP and go back at 6.

So we went FEP. Had dinner at Grafitti cafe and talked everything under the sun. I love long chats.

Went back to Haji Lane at 6 and had our Sheesha. Initially I was like "You guys blow lor. I see you all blow can liao" Then it became "Eh nice not ah? Lemme try." Kinda fucked up cos I succumbed to temptations.

The first blow felt like nothing. The most it felt like breathing in one big mouthful of air. Then after a few, it felt better and tastier (we had the grape one). Y'know people used to say that Sheesha doesnt contain nicotine so it isnt addictive. But hey look what Google says!

MYTH: Smoking a hookah is not as addictive as smoking a cigarette because there is no nicotine.

TRUTH: Just like regular tobacco, sheesha contains nicotine. In fact, in a 60-minute hookah session, smokers are exposed to 100 to 200 times the volume of smoke inhaled from a single cigarette.

I got cheated lah. I thought it wasnt as harmful as sticks thats why I tried it. Back to the point, it can be quite addictive cos I started breathing in bigger gulps of it. I took in bigger mouthfuls of it each time. I started feeling floaty and couldnt really concentrate on what the girls were talking. My mind went blank and I started feeling "sleepy". But it was really weird. Cos I knew I was already feeling floaty but I didnt stop blowing and worst taking bigger mouthfuls. No lah, I didnt went high and started singing songs or dancing in public. But I couldnt deny that I felt alittle seh. I stopped after one XXXXXL mouthful which made my throat really dry. So I stopped to drink some water. Hahaha. Then passed it on.

No doubt it's a good experience, but it'll only be a experience. Sheesha's bad.

>A 45 to 60 minute hookah session exposes the smoker to approximately the same amount of tar and nicotine as one pack of cigarettes. AND >In a sheesha session lasting 60 minutes, a smoker can inhale as much smoke as a cigarette smoker would inhale from 100 – 200 cigarettes. AND >Many of the chemicals are known to cause mouth and lung cancers, heart disease, respiratory and other diseases.

I dont wanna die young.

Google, again, says: Using a waterpipe to smoke tobacco is NOT a safe alternative to cigarette smoking.

Walao eh. I was cheated.

P/s: The girls didnt want their seesha photos up on the internet. So not posting them up. >:)

It's your day, dad.

2010-06-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

Had breakfast at Choupinette as planned. Just feel great with the right people, right food, right place. >;)

I dropped my foundation case this morning and my whole piece of cake shattered into powder. Was really pissed off at that point of time cos I was rushing for time and I hate dirty floors. Anyway, had to get my skincare products so dad sent mum and I to Orchard before he went for painting.

Did a lot of shopping since everywhere's on GSS.
My foundation was OOS at Wisma so we had to walk over to Taka to buy it.
Was carrying a frozen catfish throughout the time we were at orchard. Fucking mad. We were suppose to brng it down to Granny's place for dinner. But since Orchard was an impromptu decision, we had to bring it along with us. To Orchard.
Spent almost an hour in an Organic shop trying out almond tea, smoked plum soup, coraline with black fungus drink, organic chips, and more organic stuff.

Went Granny's house. Had a great chat with Bobs Koh. Kind of creepy cos the guy she was talking about was just like you. Introvert at heart, tempremental, mysterious, blah blah blah.

2010-06-20T02:42:00.002+08:00

HEYHEI FRIEND/FOE.

Technically, it's Papi day. I've to wake up at 6 later to prepare for the breakfast with the parents. Yknow, me being me, as lazy as ever, my phone is on low batt, my Itouch is on low batt, my camera is on low batt, everything is on low batt (including me). That explains why I have to wake up 2 hours before we set off. To charge everything lah.

I've to find something to occupy myself since my nails aren't dry yet. So here I am.

Today was good cos...

1) I did ALL my tuition homework. Am so proud of myself.
2) Went Scotts Isetan and had Caramel espresso at Dome. Taste good leh.

3) Finally bought my nude lipstick. <3 (At Etude house again..... FREEBIES)

4) Had durians while watching boring and draggy Taiwan drama series.

5) Made my mumma smell my lips at the busstop cos I thought my lipstick smelt like bubblegum. (my mum said it really did)

6) Took long bus ride home.

7) Walked up the overhead bridge. Did feel contraction of inner tigh muscles.

8) Something that thing one thing.

My mum had ginger latte at Dome today. The smell was so overpowering it gave me headache. But mumma said it was tasty. Had to believe her since she went "Mhmmm, nice leh. Wanna try?"

Mumma was applying for the membership card...

Mum: "卡上面的名字应该放什么啊？"
Me: "Cutie pie strawberry cupcake honey sugar Barbie pinky lollipop doll muack muack."

My nails are almost dry. >:) Shall hit the sack now.

P/s: No my mum didn't put that name I suggested for her Dome membership card.

2010-06-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

My mum was scooping some soup for me.

Mum: 那! 这是 mushroom 的脚。
Me: Oh…
Mum: 你没有问我 mushroom 有脚 meh?
Me: 没你那么 lame 咯…

Bed hunting @ vivo.

2010-06-15T03:09:00.000+08:00

Woke up 5 hours later than planned. So had to rush to get ready, rush to take a cab, rush to Ikea. :) Then we started on our bed hunting expedition. Was shitloads of fun cos there were so many things there to play with. Anyway, I had my eyes on a queen size bed there. But my room's friggin small (if any of you guys know). So either I'll have to sacrifice some good space, or else get a chio single size bed. Still thinking about it. Hmm..

Went to have brunch at the cafeteria. Didnt have the meatballs there cos it was BEEF and pork. But the spagetti with tomato sauce wasnt that bad too. Talked crap with my mum, and then koped one of the chicken wings on her plate. Mum suggested moving house (again I know). I was thinking about the suite opposite my block (which is Hume park's suite), but then thought it was kinda retarded to move to somewhere inside my condo. But shit that thought cos my mum suggested that too. Mad funny cos I was like "I WAS THINKING ABOUT THAT TOO. HAHAHA SO RETARDED!" So we were laughing and laughing and laughing...

Trained down to Gombak to meet the usual people - some usual people + some unusual people. K kidding. Met up with Soufong, Joseph, Sean, Zhihao, Thomas, Ben. We trained down to Vivo and they went to have LJS. We looked really pathetic sitting outside Vivo having LJS. Anyway, it was really boring during the time outside there. Finally went back in to Vivo, then went to have our long candy. Walked over to Harbour Front and went mad with Soufong. I laughed so hard till my back started hurting. Zhihao hit into one of the signboards when he was looking at us fight. And a stranger detoured when he saw us fighting. < That was mad funny cos he turned back after we stopped fighting.

Took the last bus home.

I saw Brad Pitt's clone on the train back to Outram park. I swear he was hot enough to eat. Muah.

Actions > Words. (I saw this somewhere but just cant remember where. Credits to you then!)

Hit the beach

2010-06-12T18:40:00.008+08:00

^Was mimicking some kid in "Karate Kid" Haiiiiiiiiii-yak!

Went Sentosa yesterday. Overall it was fun, but the sun was really scorching. And one really sweet thing was that the guys swam over to the opposite side, and drew a "HAPPY BDAY SF" for Sf. ;) Will upload the photos once Edwin posts them up on Facebook.

We washed up and went back to Vivo to catch Karate Kid at 1630. Was freezing in the theatre cos I was in my soaked-with-sea-water-pants. I was really hungry too. Haha, I couldnt really concentrate on the movie cos I was shivering and really hungry. But that movie is kinda nice. "Put your jacket up. Take it down. Wear it on. Take it off. Drop it. Put your jacket up. Take it down. Wear it. Take it off. Drop it." Hahaha.

After movie, Da went off and we went to Clarke Quay for dinner. Josephine went to buy Sticky after that. We sat along Singapore River around 2030. Watched people play the bungee jump, waved to tourists on the boats, chit chat. Went for some ice cream and went home around 2200.

Home at 2300 and was dead beat.

Everything comes back once again. I thought I was already over it, I thought I wont feel anything again.. Just hope that this feeling fades soon. K the end. No more such stuff again. K?

Hsf's sweet sixteen.

2010-06-12T15:56:00.000+08:00

XOXO

Let it eat me up

2010-06-12T10:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish that I never knew you.

You're weird. You're different. You're eccentric. You're whimsical. But why still, so special?

2010-06-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

不知不觉，想靠近你的时候。

el oh el.

2010-06-08T23:36:00.001+08:00

SNAP.

Eh, a cute guy just snapped a photo of you. EL OH EL.

(I assume behind that gigantic lens is a cute guy)

Ive got a confession to make. I think guys look really good in tight fitting shirts. Kinda sick huh? EL OH EL. BUT! Shirts that are too tight are really gay. I always see sissys in too tight fitting clothes.

I wish I was fair.

I wish I had big eyes.

I wish my face wasnt so broad.

I wish I had long legs.

I wish my eyebrows were even.

I wish my tummy would never show.

I wish I had a higher forehead.

I wish I had chesnut brown hair.

I wish I was a lefty.

I wish I had a middle name.

I wish I had voluminous hair.

I wish I will never have splitends.

I wish Beckham was my neighbour.

I wish I had longer lashes.

I wish I was trilingual.

I wish someone would tell me cold jokes every night.

I wish I'll pass my DPA. (Everyone pray hard for me! Xo)

Im not unsatisfied with myself/my life. But people just have to dream a little. Just a little huh ;) EL OH EL.

BMT enlistment.

2010-06-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today's the "big"day for CT. Haha, he's going Pulau Tekong for BMT. We accompanied him there and went for a tour around the offshore island.

It wasnt as ulu as I thought it would be. I thought their bunk beds would be shaky, no toilet doors, lockers that cant be locked (pun)... But it was totally different. They said that they just went under renovation, so everything's nice and new. Their beds were sturdy and their toilets were even cleaner than my house's. They even have this... annex room? (Is that what it's called?) So awesomely cool. ;>

We then attended this talk given by some officer I suppose. Then all the enlistees had to do some pledge which was very funny when they were made to say thier NRIC. All I heard was "I, NRIC S878723575198635ZSDXCF, EXCFTVKUHNJN, Having entered the service..." It was epic. Then we went to have something at the canteen a stone throw away from the auditorium. Filled our stomach, and it was time for my brother to leave. ;( Every falled in, then turned, and walk off... So sad, will miss that retarded brother of mine. T_______________________T

We took a ferry back to Singapore, then took the shuttle bus back to Pasir Ris Mrt station. Trained down to Orchard with Mum. Went Ion. I spent a lot today.. Nope, I have been spending a lot these days. Which is really bad, of course.

Bought red wedges a week back.
Bought China glaze Watermelon rind two days ago. (Cant wait for it to arrive)
Bought maxi dress yesterday. (Cant wait for it to arrive too)
Bought lots of food today.
Bought Honey peach blusher, which came with a free cherry lip stain. (This is one of the reason why I love shopping at Etude House. FREEBIES! FREEBIES!)
Bought a notebook from Artbox today. I've used up my current notebook, so went shopping for a new one today. Does anybody have an idea why Kikki.K's notebooks are like sooooooo expensive? Apart from them being cute and chic.

Have been really obsessed with peachy things these days. I dont know why. Peach is a nice colour. ;)

Im missing CT already. :(

At Muji today....

Me: Hey hey, is my hand fairer now? (I just tried on some whitening essence sold at Muji)
*Showing my mum both of my hands for comparison*
Mum: Yea. This one looks fairer!
*I went quiet and was really puzzled*
Me: But I applied the essence on this hand leh! (Pointing to the hand which my mum said wasnt as fair)

Both of us roared into laughter after that. Was mad funny and I couldnt stop laughing till this aunty tsk me. Wth, funny mah. Not meh?

ABCDEFABULOUS

2010-06-07T00:42:00.001+08:00

This was taken on 1st June. We went Canton Kitchen for dinner, opposite Mosque st. Anyway, the food was fab. ;) I like one of the dishes which I think is pork ribs or something. It smelt really delicious and yummy. I only had two scopes of it, then it was gone. TOO LITTLE FOR 13 PEOPLE HUH. Hahaha.

Oh yea, the main purpose of having this dinner was cos CT's going to NS tomorrow, so he's treating us all to dinner. Haha, we should do this again when he comes out. 2 weeks later?

Went Mayim for brunch today. They have awesome noodles.

Currently eating some very sweet grapes. Seedless somemore, good or good? Best.

P/s: I've got the fatest face in the picture above. >:(

Freed.

2010-06-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

Sun and Sun with Moon for dinner. :) Was yumlicious, love Jap food as usual! We went to the Clarke Quay branch so we also got to enjoy the night view along Singapore river. Along Singapore River were crowded with large groups of people doing really weird stuff. I saw one guy trying to do somersauts. Um? Along Singapore river??? LOLOL.

CT bought baos and kuehs for granny. So we went down to Granny's house aftermath. Btw, mum bought some apple guava that looks like and apple but taste like a apple+guava at some organic shop I suppose. Kinda cute huh? I dont usually eat guava cos it taste like (?), but srsly, this apple guava didnt had the usual "guava" taste. So I did enjoy my slices of apple guava just now. :) Nom nom nom.

P/s: Yea my brother looks really shag. He has been living his life to the fullest. To be exact, his night life.

***********

GREAT NEWS. (FLASH A MILLION)

Kitts are back. <3 CT cut off the rope holding the fence. FYI: The fence is tied to the gate of our neighbour's back balcony. Let me repeat, my neighbour. So we actually spoilt their fence. No joke. Hahaha, anyway, CT got Mimi back. Am so glad to see them again.

Well, about the fence..... Lets hope my neighbour doesnt find out that their fence has a hole in it!

2010-06-05T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yes. Those two dumbass(es) are stucked in my neighbour's house who suey suey have moved away ages ago. The management office are helping us to contact them.

I miss you, dumb kitt.:(

Huhuhuhumongous strawberry

2010-06-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

2010-06-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

I woke up only when it was time for everyone in school to go home. Not everyone, but at least 4E2.

Today wasnt that bad. Of course, giving school a miss played a part in having a happy day. And the fact that I finally managed to play 爱很简单 without any mistakes. Haha, so happy. Did I tell you guys that Im gonna take up piano lessons again after O's? Yeah, Im very happy about that too. ;)

Did Amath paper in the afternoon. Im working on it. I think I might start to like Logarithms for some reason. Anyway, it was a really wrong decision to do my work infront of the com. Because I ended up watching 我在你左右. Nathaniel Ho looks awesomely neat and hot in grey long pants. Ahaha.

Everlasting cycle,

2010-06-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

Whenever I hear her say that, I feel so irritated and angry deep down. Why did she have to do that? Why make him love her then tell him she feels nothing for him anymore? Why why why? I really want to shake her out of her senses. I really want to tell her how much she hurt him. I really want to let her know how unfair she was to him.

But before I could do all that, suddenly something came speeding across my mind. I thought to myself, if I would to do all that, it would be like "slapping my own mouth". Because all that she did was what I had done before.

I dont have to put myself in her shoes. Cos I went through all of that before. Then it came to me that I couldnt really blame her. Yes, it was really bitchy. To get hurt, then go hurt someone. But sometimes, stuff like this is inevitable. Not exactly unavoidable, but at that point of time, when you were all vulnerable and sad, he came into the picture. You werent clear of everything. Coincidental or not, he just happens to be there when you thought of the one that hurt you. Coincidental or not, he happens to always be the one that put a smile on your face whenever the one that hurts you, hurts you even more. Coincidental or not, he happens to make you "miss" him if he would to get busy for a moment.

Then you start to think that you do like him. In a way or another. You thought that he made you forget him, you thought that he made everything happy and colourful once again, you thought he finally was the one that deserved all your love. You hang out with him, text him all day, share happy stuffs. Then, share love.

However, BANG BANG BANG. You die. Cos after some time, you find that in a small hidden corner of your mind/heart, you still do like him, you still do think of him, you still think he's cute, you still get those butterflies in your tummy whenever you see him.

Then everything changes overnight. You start feeling that you dont miss him all that much, you dont like him all that much, you dont feel that happy with him.

He gets hurt.

He hurts you. You hurt him. He hurts someonelse. Someonelse hurts someonelse's someone. An everlasting cycle. Everyone gets hurt, and hurts someone. Who to blame? Blame yourself.

Juggling emotions.

2010-06-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

Reached school too early today. Was alone with Suji and a few other classmates in class. :( Then Eugin/Eugene from NA came in. And started blabbering to me about my Amath textbook, my best friends, my phone/itouch. Was quite creepy... Later on, people started flooding into the class.

Help4 was shit and boring. In other words, boring shit.

Today's just bad.

Firstly, I got fucking picked by you. Bloody shit, I dont even hate you I dont get why you're picking on me. You're like"slapping your own mouth". Cos you keep telling everyone that you cant please everyone, but then you keep picking on me cos you THINK I hate you. Siao ah?

Secondly, there came another you. Just got to say this. Shit the hell out of you cos all you do is assume. Then you'll predict some shit stuff that you think will motivate me to work hard. How many times do I have to let you know that it doesnt help, and the only person that will be able to motivate me and make me do stuff is ME MYSELF.If you think Im dumb, then you should look in the mirror first. For god's sake.

Thirdly, it's just a snowballing effect lah. Cos I was already pissed off at that point of time, then you came to scream at me for no reason. Got problem lah you.

Lastly (hopefully this wll be the last one of the day), I'm no typing in the car. It's giving me a migrane. Feel like vomiting now. PUKES IN ALL YOUR FACES.

Tomorrow will be better right? :(

First paper of O's. (MT)

2010-05-31T23:45:00.001+08:00

Bye bye CL! (For now) ;)

I reached school around 7.25am today. Was already feeling those butterflies in my tummy last night, needless to say this morning. Felt like the whole Jurong Birdpark was in me. Anyway, sat down with Jojo and her classmates. Everyone was like "Eh, format this format that uh..". Made me more nervous than ever. I didnt remember being so nervous when I was taking PSLE. It felt like the second Band SYF. Heart palpilating/flustered/jittery. Except that this time, it's gonna make a difference if I get into my dream course or not.

Just glad that it's over for now. Another few more papers during the EOY. Next paper on... 25/10. HUR HUR HUR.

My brother went to buy his Non-camera phone today. HTC SNAP. Y'know what? Initially, I was thinking about getting that. Was pretty upset that my mum broke her promise... She promised me that I'll get to buy my HTC MINI when my brother changes his phone for NS. Got me really upset and felt like shit. I know "promises are meant to be broken"/"promises are hard to keep", but kindly please dont promise me anything in future if you dont have brinjals to guarentee that you wont break it. It's not a really pleasant thing to mop over such stuff. I hate feeling that kind of twist in the stomach when I see my brother playing with his new phone in his room.

I gained 2kg in a week. And looks like an inflated balloon whenever I wear fitting clothes.

Anyway, I bought red wedges at HVV today. Am happy like siao. Looks chio enough to eat. It's arriving in a few days. XOXOXO.

Did I mention that Im gonna take up swimming lessons soon? I actually wanted to take up some yoga classes and stuff. Lessons/classes that helps me lose weight as well as destress. But then, I would like to try to overcome my phobia. So, swimming lessons FTW! :) You guys out there watch out. I might become Michael Phelps Number 2. Haha, who am I kidding...

Tomorrow's Help4 spells YUCKSOME. :(

Xoxo.

2010-05-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

明天就是华文O水准了。我真的真的真的好紧张。

2010-05-29T01:58:00.000+08:00

说好听点，是做回朋友。
说难听点，是再也不联络。

你会是个难忘的回忆。但只会是回忆。

2010-05-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

好像有些话还没说。

2010-05-26T20:47:00.001+08:00

今天天气还是那么炎热。羡慕那些在冷气室上7节华文课的学生。过去3天都是天天做公/私函和试卷二，今天和过去的那3天没什么两样。今天而外还做了一个作文。今天特别有灵感，所以写得相当顺。哈哈。:)

放学后，我和女朋友们到音乐团帮忙。我们不只没帮到忙，反而帮倒忙。哈哈，大家都坐在第二排说话。而我是累到不行，拿着笛子都能够睡觉。嘿嘿。

5点时，我实在是累到猴子飞，所以决定回家。

在回家的路程，脑海里一直重复你发给我的那段简讯。真的非常的不好受。但算了吧，只要你决定好的事，不管我怎么解释也是没用的。等你好好想清楚再说吧。;)

从今天开始。 ;)

2010-05-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

为了复习下个礼拜一的华文 O 水准，从今天到下个拜一都会用华文来写博客。（刚刚用转播器查，才发现 blog 是叫做博客。哈哈哈）

最近天气热到不行，尤其我们是在课室里上6节课。就差一点点融化了。:( 今天做了一张华文试卷一和二。从上个拜五就开始天天做别间学校的试卷了。靠，现在写华文字都会觉得字看起来好奇怪。我想明天也因该会在做多几张卷子吧。。。

这个星期六就是 Meet-the-parents session (I couldnt find the translated form in Bing Translator. LOLOL.) 所以决定从今天到老师还没见到我老妈之前，要保持在最佳状态。嘿嘿，今天在班上除了不小心睡着之外，我并没有睡觉。不错了啦。但说真的，化学课真的超像催眠课。那一个小时非常难敖过。

好了，我就此搁笔。(顺便练习私函，哈哈。) 想睡觉了啦。拜拜！

CT's Graduation Ceremony,

2010-05-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

CT's Graduation Ceremony started at 4pm. My mum and dad were with him throughout the whole ceremony. But I only reached NP at 5, so I missed it. :( Very sad about that. Anyway, at least I was in time to take some pictures with him and have some refreshments. Everyone looked so smart, even my dad. <3 Hahaha.

We left around 6. Brother went out with his friends. And, I had awesome nice chicken rice at Rail mall for dinner. Good or good? :) Kekeke.

Hey there, you're looking good. ;) Love you xoxo.

A Hero Lies In You. :)

2010-05-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you're born to stand out?

Couldnt fall asleep last night. Felt really terrible. It was all hot and stuffy. I was paranoid cos there's IMT today, which of course would be very boring. So how could I afford to lose my precious sleep when Im gonna have a tiring day ahead? Urgh, glad I managed to fall asleep around 3.

Today's IMT was again another boring shit. But it wasnt too bad after the first break. We did a situational writing then I spent almost 45mins playing Ice Tycoon on Charmaine's Iphone. I BROKE MY OWN RECORD. WOOHOO FTW. But all thanks to Oyc, he ended my game at stage 21. He pressed the 'menu' button, and whoosh all my nice ice-creams, teddy bears, m&ms, strawberry syrup disappeared. THANKS LOR. :( Asshead, hahaha.

After he flushed my fruits of labour into the drain (I dont think this is how I should use 'fruits of labour' but whatever yea), we started guessing Mdm Wong's Chinese name. I'm quite sure I heard Mdm Khong calling her Hui Jun that time... But she said no. Oh well.

Another hundred more days to the end of O levels! ;) Cant wait!

A Whole New World,

2010-05-23T16:36:00.001+08:00

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

A whole new world

A dazzling place I never knew

A whole new world

Don't you dare close your eyes

A whole new world

Every turn a surprise

A whole new world

That's where we'll be

A thrilling chase

A wondrous place

For you and me

(Aladdin- A Whole New World)

Settlers Cafe.

2010-05-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Went Settlers Cafe yesterday. Was great great great. ;)

UGLY UGLY UGLY.

QUIZZZZZZZZ TIME.

2010-05-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Tan Rou Ying
Birth Date: 25th Oct
Current Location: My bedroom
Hair Color: Brown
Righty/Lefty: Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: Losing loved ones. Insects. Horror movies.
Your dream of the perfect date: Watching the sunset/sunrise.
Goals you’d like to achieve: Pass O Levels. (Currently)

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.

Your thoughts first waking up: Should have slept earlier.
Your best physical feature: I dont think I have one. T_____T
Your bed time: When I feel like it.
Your most missed memory: Hmm, when my mum used to sing me Que Sera.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.

Pepsi or Coke: Coke.
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald's.
Single or Group Dates: Depends.
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Chocolate or Vanilla: How about both?
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino.

LAYER 5: DO YOU.

Smoke: No.
Cuss: Almost everyday. (LOLOLOL)
Take showers: You mean you dont?
Have a crush: Yes, loads.
Like school: Used to, but not anymore.
Believe in yourself: Hmm, depends....
Believe what goes around comes around: Karma. YES.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Well, not really.
Think you’re a health freak: Nonono.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.

Gone to the mall: Yes, I just did 3 days ago.
Been on stage: Yea.
Eaten sushi: YES FOR GOODNESS SAKE. <3
Been hurt: Yes.
Dyed your hair: Yea. (Thinking of dyeing it again)

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.

Played a stripping game: No. (LOL)
Kissed the same sex: Yes.
Got beaten up: Nope, wouldnt like to try.
Changed who you were to fit in: I dont think so.

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.

Age you’re hoping to be married by: I dont think I even can.
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2?

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.

Best eye color: Blue. :)
Short or long hair: SHORT!
Fat or fit: Fit, duh...
Looks or personality: Both, kekeke.
Fun or serious: Both. But more of fun huh? ;)

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.

1 MINUTE AGO: Doing this quiz.
1 HOUR AGO: Having dinner.
1 WEEK AGO: Studying for my Physics Paper1.
1 YEAR AGO: Enjoying life.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.

I feel: Kinda stressed. I dont know why.
I hate: Studying. I seriously do..
I hide: In the cupboard when I used to play Hide and Seek.

LAYER 12: FAVORITES.

Band: None. Hillgrove Concert band? Hahahaha.
Color: Orange. Red. Whatever that makes me happy.
Food: Japanese food.

LAYER 13: RANDOM.

How long have you known your best friend(s)?: 4 years. :)
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: I cant remember.
What’s your middle name?: I dont have one!
What are you excited for?: O Levels to be over.
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: Yes... :)
What’s something random about you?: I love washing my hair.

2010-05-19T18:38:00.000+08:00

Y'know what? You're always like this.

You do what you want and what you think is right. And of course, half of the time, you're wrong! I don't get you, is it so freaking hard to even think before you talk or are you mentally challenged so your brain can't function? This is so irritating.

Look, stop acting like the earth revolves around you. Of course you don't find it tough because you're not the one cleaning up the mess! You think it's fine cos all you have to do after everything happens is just push the mess to someone else. And somehow, whenever you create troubles, someone will always be there to help you clean YOUR mess. Then of course it's easy for you to defend them by saying that cleaning up their/your mess is just a walk in the park.

What's wrong with you? Oh damn it.

Home Alone,

2010-05-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

Just got out of the shower.

So lets see, Im home alone today. And.... I think I kinda like it. ;)

I got back 6 papers today. I got really lousy grades for all 6 of them. I know I expected all these, but I really cant help feeling disappointed. Not just a little, but very much disappointed. I've got a feeling that Im gonna fail my Chemistry for the very first time. Oh dang.

I have yet to get back my Eng paper 1. I know Im gonna fail it cos I screw it bu writing out of point for my compo and a wrong format for situational. I cant believe it. Probably I'll end up being last in class this term cos Im gonna fail my English, Amath, Physics (well I already did), Chemistry, Geography, Social Studies. So to sum up, Im only gonna pass my Chinese and Emath. Oh well done... This is the worst term ever.

Digressing, Im having pizza for dinner. ;> Alone. At home.

The doorbell just rang. Must be the deliveryman. O well, till then! Xo.

Little Red Indian.

2010-05-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Met up with the girls at Mac.
Had our lunch.
Jojojo Tun spent half an hour eating Mcspicy with a friggin FORK AND KNIFE.
Trained down to Marina.
Walked to Marina Barrage.
Unfortunately, we walked for nearly an hour but still couldnt see MB.
Gave up and walked into Esplanade instead.
Bought delicious Attap seed ice-cream on the way.
Trained to Yewtee Point.
Trained down to Westmall.
Had dinner at Sakae.
Harvey Norman to buy the CHEAP washing machine. Dad was mad funny.
HSH! <3

Dont worry. Your nightmare is over.

Fabulicious^2 million

2010-05-16T22:23:00.005+08:00

Pimple hasnt heal.

Had very berry delicious kuey chap at Toa Payoh this evening. Was craving for it, so I die die also wanna have it today. Keke, couldnt find any kuey chap stall around our area, so we went all the way down to Toa Payoh. Saw my aunts and cousin there. :)

Kinda funny that my maternal grandparents and relatives stays around the south side while we're the only fam that stays in the west side.

Went Westmall's Harvey Norman to buy a washing machine after dinner. The salesman got really angry when we insisted buying another brand cos he was promoting for Thomsons. But whatever, we used to use a Thomsons washing machine. Until my previous maid broke the washing machine door, with a screw driver. Dad's determine to buy a cheap washing machine now, in case my new maid breaks the door again. LOLOL.

Went to Pets Lovers Shop to buy Mimi's litter. And met a really cute guy in the shop. Haha, he had a really nice accent. Oh yea, Mimi(s) have been stinking up my back balcony with its shit and stuff. Does anyone have any idea how to stop that odour? It freaking stinks up the whole area behind the kitchen and makes my cats smell like their poo (even after their bath). I hope the new magic sand I just bought helps. It says "keeps odour away" on the packet. I'll ask for a refund if it doesnt help. Keke, just kidding.

$10-outing with the girls tomorrow. Heading Marina Barrage. We'll be bringing only 10 bucks each tomorrow. Gonna explore Singapore. Omgeee, cant wait! <3 Initially, I wanted to take the Singapore Flyer, but I suddenly remembered that we're only suppose to bring $10 tomorrow. Hahaa, Josephine actually wanted to only bring $2 each, then Jiamin replied her "Bring $2, eat air uh?" Hahahahahahaahha, made me LOL when I saw that message.

K, that's all for today. Hope my pimple heals by tomorrow.

P/s: Jo, I bought the Nexcare Acne Patch leh. ALL THANKS TO YOU LAH HOR, keke.

2010-05-16T11:03:00.001+08:00

Have been rather unhappy these days. Couldn't find the reason but today morning, I think I found why.

Nothing complicated.

Have been worried about doing badly for MYE. That's why. :(

2010-05-16T02:25:00.002+08:00

其实本来是有好多东西是要跟你说，跟你谈的。但现在真的就找不到适合的字形容我想表达的那一种心情了。

一个人用远不能够扛起所有的责任。我从来每要求你原谅我，也没奢望一些有的没的，但就只有希望会有一天你不在用那种不在乎的语气根我说话，有一天能够真正的做下来跟你说清楚。

但过了太久了。从来就每给我那个机会去弥补。现在我对你。。。真的无话可说了。

You left me speechless.

2010-05-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Today way great. ;)

P/s: Just wanna upload photos. Dont have much to say anyway.

Proudly presents,

2010-05-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

HTC MINI. ♡

I like the way you are,

2010-05-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

Last day of MYE. Frankly speaking, wasnt really happy about it cos I've a feeling I'll do badly for it. :( Anyway, still kinda glad that the exams are over. Have been sleeping late for the past few days, shall sleep to the sun is up high in the sky tomorrow. O KEKEKE. :>

Went out with the girls today. Was tiring but fab. <3 Saw FT ISLAND's album today, thought about you. ;)

Oh yea, when I was studying for my Physics paper2 2 days ago, I was trying to memorise the uses of rays. When I came to infrared rays, the first thing that came to mind was indians. Hope you get the joke. HAHAHAHAHA. No offence, just thought of a racist joke my brother told me years back.

Anyway, heading down to Orchard tomorrow. Haha, has been quite some time since I last went shopping with my mum. CANT W8! <3 I hope we'll be getting my HTC MINI tomorrow. Cant wait for awesome shopping!

P/s: I have a pimple. No, I have two pimples that are really close to each other, which makes it look like I have one BIG pimple. >:(

10 FACTS ABOUT TRY:

2010-05-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

I hate being left out.
When I was in Primary school, I used to brush my teeth twice a week. (Yes GROSS)
BUT, now I brush my teeth three times a day.
I love cats.
I never never never leave the house without wearing contacts.
I stay in bed for 15 mins before getting out of bed every morning.
Im afraid of lightnings. (Not so much of thunder)
I love love love love Japanese food.
I used to be a tomboy when I was Primary 4.
The above facts are all true.

2010-05-11T19:00:00.002+08:00

I feel it tugging at my soul.

Today was shit. I didnt manage to finish my SS paper. The fans were so strong, I spent half my time preventing my papers from flying away. Amath paper 1 wasnt that bad, BUT STILL, maybe a marginal pass. I'll be contented, I promise.

It started raining soon after our paper ended.

I think I'm hypocrite number one. PUI.

I cant wait for exams to end. For some reasons, I think life would be better by then. Well of course, hopefully by that time the rain would stop pouring everyday (soaks my school shoes), hopefully by then I will be able to keep my mind off homeworks for a few days, hopefully by then all I have to do for homework is mock papers, hopefully by then I'll get to see your smile, hopefully by then I'll be able to get my HTC MINI/HTC HD2. Hopefully lah k? :)

Have been home for 3 hours already. Should start on revision soon. Soon, real soon.

Btw, I got my class photos today. <3 Look fugly inside.

Sorry that this post is so jumbled up. Will do a proper one next time. Hopefully, soon. Hope okay?

I think I'm really mentally unstable now. Might go siao anytime.

Was just trying to exaggerate. But I really feel kinda like Im sad. But no, sad isnt the word. It feels like Im angry. No, not really angry too. It feels like I've lost a battle. It feels like how you'll feel if you were in my situation. It feels like you think you should do that, but then you think that isnt the best solution to this problem. It feels like you should carry out that best solution, but then, you know you wont be happy with that outcome.

I feel like Im confused. Yes bingo. Confused.

Smile smile smile.

2010-05-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

If you remember,

2010-05-10T15:03:00.000+08:00

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2010-05-09T16:19:00.000+08:00

I cant play Canon In D with a cut thumb.

No, to be exact, I cant play the piano at all.

Happy Momsies Day!

2010-05-08T18:38:00.002+08:00

Had Momsies day celebration @ Liang court. Food wasnt really fab, but the lighting was great (not great for taking photos though..). Anyway, bought sunnyflower for mum. <3

Almost forgot about Momsies day actually. Until dad scolded me through sms, saying that I was ungrateful and stuff. :( Haha, didnt have time to make a card or prepare something nice (exams), so went to buy flowers after my papers yesterday. Aline and I bought a sunnyflower for our mum. Wanted to buy a bunch of yellow roses, but they symbolises friendship. Chey.. They should have orange flowers, that symbolises mumship. ME WILL BUY THAT.

We went Mediya after dinner. Omg, love that place. I used to spend an hour or two at their fruits corner. They have really shiny lemons, really round tomatoes, and really expensive rockmelons. The whole place was filled with Japanese, and I actually felt like one the whole time I was in Mediya. Kekeke, gonna visit Mediya again, soon. ;)

6 papers down. Hang in there.

Taking a break from everything. I think I've overworked, till everything went wrong. Have been spending my days saying so many sorry(s).

2010-04-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

I had detention today. And the 2 and a half hours inside the detention room felt like 20 hours. :(

I like the rain. Cos I brought my umbrella to school today.

I bought Hokkaido cream buns @ 7-ll this afternoon. Gonna eat them during tomorrow's recess.

I miss you a lot.

It cost $3 to bind a stack of notes. Very very expensive.

Have been sleeping my Chemistry lessons away these few weeks. Not that bad since Chem lessons have never been productive. Shall revise on my own.

Chronowerkz is this Saturday.

Have been really afraid of being under the sun these days. Stood under the shade at the traffic light while waiting for the red man to turn green today.

Have been finishing my plate of rice before the recess bell goes off.

Am dreading MYE.

Off to sleep, hopefully I'll be able to skip PE tomorrow.

TOODLES!

2010-04-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

It's how we seem like we get along very well that seems so fake right now. How we appear to be on good terms but in actual fact, we really arent. How we hang out all the time, but all we do when we're not together is backstabbing.

I really dont like how things are right now. Can we all clarify and make things clear? I dont wanna live everyday trying to guess if you were avoiding eye contact with me, or you and you were gossiping behind my back, or this, or that. Very very tiring to be on guard all the time, trying to beware of the people that I use to be really close with.

We might seem very distant right now. How everyone find their own partners and find their own topics to talk about right now, but I still do feel close to you all. Seriously.

Take the incident that happened last week, you guys stood by me eventhough you all didnt talk at all. I know how protective you all are over each and every one of us. I know how it scared you to see me react that way...

We use to talk about anything and everything. We use to hang out together at least once a week. We use to gossip together. We use to share secrets. We use to mass send to all of us when we broke up with our bfs. We use to LOL non-stop together. We use to do everything TOGETHER. We use to, we use to, we use to. Can it be, we still are, we still are, we still are, instead?

Yes, probably last year was a very crucial year. Where all of us went different ways, to different classes. We all did change. Not just you, you, you, you or you, or me. WE ALL DID. But are you all sure our relationship has turned sour because of all these changes? You mean this is the max our relationship can withstand? All these years that built our foundation was not enough to hold this amount of changes?

A clique is a group of friends that hang out together all the time. But after all we've been through together, I believe our clique should be a group of girls that hang out together all the time, and would never leave each other in times of need. Needless to say, a slight change.

We should have a h2h talk someday. :)

Not Born To Please You.

2010-04-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

CHEM SPA SKILL 3. TODAY. BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY.VERY NERVOUS. THINK GONNA FAIL. :(

School.
Mac.
School with Ho.
Physics night class.
Westmall for dinner.
Home.

I cant seem to get along with people these days. But then yea, like how my title suggests, I'm not born to please anyone. I think I've changed, but I've got no reasons to change back to the old me.

Physics SPA tomorrow. I hope it wont be something so difficult that I've to crack my brain. I sat and thought for 15 minutes during Chem SPA today. Was pretty scary cos everyone around me had started scribbling and I was like "So how do I start......." Tomorrow's Physics should prolly end up like that too.

I wish you would stop making me so confused.

Looking forward to seeing the colour Orange tomorrow. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, have been looking forward to school these days. ;) SERIOUS.

2010-04-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEETSIXTEEN <3

Performance Under The Stars.

2010-04-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

The performance was awesome eventhough it wasnt literally under the stars. But nevertheless, had fun under the paper stars. The lighting was great, the music was great (not really actually), the audience were great, everything was happy and nice.

Apparently, while everyone were busy with the preparation on the performance, Ho and I were walking around the school searching for Kiwi and Coolz. <3

Anw, everyone were dressed in their best even the performers. Wanted to watch the whole performance at the side of the stage, but Mdm Khong didnt allow us to leave the band room. Had a very boring time in the band room.

The performance ended around 2110. Ho, Ljm, Eunice and I went to Batok's mac. While chilling out with them, Hsf and I were still looking out for K&C. We really werent in the right state of mind that day. Hahahaha.

Anw, will miss Band after I step down. Afterall, I've used to dread band practices (I still do sometimes), I've grown use to band practices, I've learnt awesome songs, I've got scolded, I've got a great clique through Band, I've gained a lot. Well, too much to be summarised.

Nothing beats proving to yourself that you never were a failure.

2010-04-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

(CNY 2010)

Today is the best day ever. <3

Spread the love.

2010-04-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woke at 0530 today. (Didnt meet girls for breakfast ite)
Prize Giving day. :>
Met up with the girls @ 1600.
Was freaking fooled by Eunice, Ljm, Yingshuang and Xunxiang.
Went Peninsula to buy their schoolbags.
Suntec to shop and have dinner.
Home around 2300.
Read his blog.
CREATE FACEBOOK. YEA, WTF. FINALLY.

PGD was nothing different from the past few years. Same parade songs, hot weather, same procedure. But did have fun when we were performing. Had a hard time blowing on stage cos I havent adapt to the new flute (with chio holes). Was really afraid that I would go off pitch during the performance (which I did. Fml) cos 'Up boy' placed the mic infront of me. He didnt believe me that the mic's suppose to be pointing at Gary.

Had much fun with the girls in the evening. Everyone had something to bring home. Everyone but me. Haha, didnt really find something cool. Actually I did, but then.... I wasnt out with my portable atm. No, Im not talking about my mum. HAHAHA.

Eunice and I spent half an hour in the fitting room. Annoyed Ljm and Sf cos they were sitting in the middle of Cotton On, waiting for us. Haha, but they did great at entertaining themselves. They took a video complaining on how some girls can spent forever in the fitting room. VERY CUTE HUH.

Couldnt stop laughing when Eunice tried humming the tune of March Willing And Able on the train back to Batok. We were laughing non-stop and were attacked by quite a number or irritated stares.

I HAVE A FACEBOOK NOW. IM NO LONGER A FACEBOOK NOOBIE ANYMORE. Well, I think I still am. Still very busy with uploading photos and adding new friends. Ah hahaha, so fun.

Toxic.

2010-04-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

IT WAS RAINING TODAY.

I didn't know my buck tooth's so obvious. :( But nonetheless, Im still cool.

Mum's sick. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(
Mimi got biten by something.
Have to wake up at 0430 tomorrow.
Had a nightmare last night.
Am repeating the song that never fails to remind me of you right now.

Mum suddenly had an allergy attack just now. Dad drove us to the nearest clinic and she had an injection. Am very worried cos she looked terrible. :( Btw, saw Weijian outside the clinic just now. Haha, sucha small world. :)

Have been really busy with life this week. But at times, I still do sit down and think about what have been happening in my life. More than often, your name streak across my mind. I tried really hard not to look at you at school today. Was really tough, but did manage to avoid eye contact with you for the whole day. I didnt know why I had to avoid looking at you, I just felt that I had to. I just dont wanna look at you and feel so distant, so far away from you. I dont want to see you flirting. I dont want to see your smile, I dont want to be mesmerised by that smile that I've grown in love with. I dont want to see you deep in thought whenever you're doing Physics questions. I dont want to see the way your face look like whenever you're listening carefully to what others are telling you. I dont want to see how you rest your head on your hand in Chemistry lesson.

I dont want to see how you look me in the eye.

But as much as I dont wanna see your everything, I hear your laughter. I hear you disturb her. I hear you talking in Physicis lesson. I hear you chit chatting at the parade square. I hear you arguing in Chemistry lesson. I feel your presence. I feel you slowly go. I feel you leave the class. I feel empty.

Today's the third day. I dont want to count on. I dont want to know how long will this silence last. I cant wait to hear you again. Hear from you, hear how you've been, hear your stupid voice, hear your very dumb laughter.

(Im listening to the song I got to know after I listened to it on your itouch for the 35 time today)

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2010-04-15T22:03:00.001+08:00

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Ok. That's was crap. FAKE ADVERT!!

Celebrated Danny's birthday today. His cake was yumsxz. :) Anyway, the rain started pouring at 1730 so quite a number of us were stucked at the void deck. Was pretty bored but was much entertained when Fengting jumped around the void deck. Hahahahahaha.

Went to Westmall with Sf. Had Kfc and walked around talking about everything under the sun. :>

Sometimes it's really scary to know how something can be lost in a blink of an eye. It use to be something that you've grown used to having it around, somebody whom you've grown use to his/her presence. Or you might not have to be close to him/her. Just somebody you've had a few chats with, gone out in groups once in awhile, or have seen walking down the corridor outside your classroom. Have heard a few jokes with, had laughed at his/her joke before, have been aware of his/her existence.

Just 2 days ago, I saw S in the canteen. Have never been very close with S anyway, but have gone out in a group before, laughed at S's joke and heard S say some very touching things. Have never really notice S but occassionally hear friends talk about S being funny/noisy.

Yesterday, S went to the rehab centre. I guess it was a big blow for S's family, to S's classmates, to S's girlfriend, to S's teachers, to S's "brothers". Everyone cried. S's girlfriend, S's classmates. Eventhough I've never been really close with S, I felt a tinge of sadness too. Just 2 days ago, I saw S with S's friends. At that point of time, S's close friends have already know that S will be sent to the rehab centre.

I was at the void deck this afternoon, and Sf showed me a video of S. In the video, everyone were having fun; joking and laughing out loud. Sf got that video from Jw. And I'm sure she took that video cos she knew that that would be the only source of seeing S till S's released.

Everyone were tweeting in twitter about how much they miss S. I guess it hurts a lot for everyone to know that S's gone. Just like that, just when no one have ever thought that this will ever happen. It came as surprise, an awful surprise. The class use to be full of S's nonsence and voice, but just like that. Just like that. S's gone. Have heard from friends that the class have gone much quieter. Scaringly quiet. The kind of silence that no one wants, the kind of silence that they wish would be replaced with S's chit-chatttering. Friends have said that they miss S's presence, S presence made a great difference to the class, and to their life to a certain extent, in a certain way.

Sf and I talked about it again today. Could see how much everyone miss S. Yes, he's just gone for a year or two, but probably the things that everyone have grown used to have suddenly changed. Have suddenly gone missing, have suddenly feel so far away. When the thought of S leaving has never cross anyone's mind, it came so sudden. And in a bang, shot everyone right in the heart.

"I just saw S yesterday, today S's gone. When will be next time we'll get to see S?"
"Depends on S's behaviour. A year or two I suppose."

S, everyone misses you. Everyone out there, too many to be listed in this small space. Take care, a new future awaits you.

2010-04-12T23:25:00.001+08:00

Webcam with Tang. BOOMZ.

Went home in the middle of school. Slept my afternoon away when I reached home. :(

Time check: 2316. Gonna continue on my Rq5.

Oh man, I cant find anything to eat in the fridge. That's bad, cos I need some calories to perk me up. Mum doesnt wanna share her kinder bueno with me cos I had a bad headache this morning. I think it's just an excuse..... Haha,no lah. Love her ttm. Love my dad ttm too(he came to fetch me this morning).

Btw, I thought I was lucky to have missed today's Physics remedial. Wth, in the end I found out that many of them didnt turn up for the remedial too. Chey!

2010-04-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

You make me feel that....

all that is happening at this moment- the way you treat me, the way you feel for me, the gap between us, the problems we are experiencing, the jealousy we feel for each other, the look in your eyes, etc is more than you losing trust in me.

Things started changing because I did wrong. You claimed that you've lost trust in me. You were confused, you were lost. But then, now, isn't things progressing out of track? It no longer feels like you've stop trusting me.

Yes you don't trust me like you use to anymore, but then, are you sure that things are currently like that because you've lost trust?

Or are there other reasons?

I cant be the only one fighting for this relationship. It takes two hands to clap.

2010-04-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

Cineleisure for Frolick. Yummsey.
FEP for Chippy.
Head down to Granny's house.
Had a splitting headache.
Home.
Webcam with Aline. :>
Gonna start homework soon.....

Sf and I never fail to meet later than the time we set. Was suppose to meet at 1330, ended up meeting at 1600. LOL.

Frolick was good. The gummybear topping was really cute.

We actually wanted to catch Date Night but then, we're pretty broke so ended up walking to FEP for Chippy instead. Didint see GH and NE at Cineleisure, am disappointed. Wth, even if I see him I guess I wont even recognise him lor. Dont know what was I actually anticipating.

Btw, I cant find the pink Addidas bag that I've been looking for for the past few months. Have visited quite a number of outlets but then didnt see it in any of them. Hope it isnt OOS. I will sob my eyes out, nah just kidding, but then I like that bag a lot. My current school bag is dying on me. Needa change it asap.

Webcam with Aline was really siao. Had a good laugh.

2010-04-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

These photos are mixed up. Can't exactly remember the exact dates.

School was good today. Managed to skip PE to study my Chemistry notes anyway, haha!

We've got our new flutes during band today. Happy like siao. Had a hard time adapting to the new flute, the keys were so hard to press and I had my fingers all red. But still, Trevor James' flute is so much better than Yamaha's one. At least I have a new flute, no more stinky algae flute.

Chiolicious red laptop is here. I'm currently using it btw. Haha, it's pretty small and cute. Have spent my whole night using it. I have to be totally obssess with this laptop before I get tired of it and chuck it aside.

Going out with Soufong tomorrow. On GH/NE hunt. Can't wait. <3

March Clique Gathering

2010-04-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

I know how long ago is this event. Pictures finally up. :)

Shopped for groceries at Shop and Save.
Bused to Josephine's house.
Steamboat starts.
LOL like siao. <3
Sang karaoke.
Met up with Coolz and watched him eat at Ljs. :>
He sent me back to Josephine's house.
All of us went home.

Overall, that day was great.

2010-04-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

I forgot that I've lost the rights to stop you from flirting around.

Jealousy kills the cat. I don't like it whenever you flirt. Yes, probably it's jealousy, but then sometimes it just makes me insecured. Like those typical guys that kajiao girls and make them laugh at his jokes.

But then, back to the point, I've got no rights. That's pretty sad for me. Cos I have to see you flirt and act like I'm fine with it. Actually no. I don't have to act like I'm fine. Am so not fine!

Oh man, sucha loser to feel sad everyday. I want my happy life back. With or without you.

So sad so sad so so sad. WHY THE HECK DO YOU HAVE TO LOSE TRUST IN ME??? I read your blog post for the 7th time today. I self-omitted those happy stuff. All I read was you losing trust in me. So freaking downcasted.

I hate to hear you admit that you do flirt.

I wished that nothing had happened between us before. Then you can flirt all you want and I won't even care a shit about it. Now, it just feels like I'm torned.

Anyway, my chio red laptop is already ready for collection. Can't wait.

2010-04-05T22:23:00.001+08:00

Y'know what? I've been staring at your blog page for quite some time already....

And I can't help but to keep smiling to myself. :>

When I'm happy, I self-omit stuff that makes me unhappy. So for that blog post you updated, Ive only absorbed stuff like:

1) I LIKE YOU!
2) The fact that you like my fat-ness. (So nice of you, haha)
3) The fact that you think my smile is.... brainless, but you still like it.
4) You still love me. <3<3<3

Kbyebye. You sew a smile on my face. Thanks coolz kid. <3 You live up to your name; COOLZ.

2010-04-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today was,

Tuition cancelled > Finished my 16(2) > Met up with the guys at 1530 (couldn't recognize Sean cos he's bald) > Bugis for lunch > Arab street for Sheesha > Walked aimlessly in Iluma > I went off to granny's place > GOT FREAKING STALKED > Had dinner > Home

I can never bathe without hot water. I feel that I'll still be dirty after stepping out of the bathroom after having a cold shower. Hot water disinfects you know. It will keep me bacteria-free.

Happy birthday, Thianseng! ;> Dont always say that girls are troublesome hor!!!! Haha. Happy sweet sixteen.

2010-04-03T01:07:00.002+08:00

You say you wanna take a break, I think we should just end everything.

You say you are confused, so am I.

You say you like me too, but boy, I don't feel you.

I give up. Yes I gave up/am giving up. Every moment, you stay constantly in my mind. I do reflections. Why I had to ruin everything that was once so perfect? Why I had to hurt you in the first place? Why didn't I lie to you Instead? Why I why I why I.

I don't blame you. I known it isn't your fault. I was at fault.

I did everything I could. If you felt that that wasn't enough, then sorry, that was my best and we should walk on seperate ways then.

I know you'll never be able to trust me like how you used to in the past. I'm completely lost. I don't know what I am supposed to do to gain back your trust, cos you're just like a rubiks that never can be solved. I explained/clarified stuff, but it didn't help. I made stuff clear to you, but it didn't help. I kept a distance from him, but it didn't help. Fail fail still fail.

I give up not because I'm tired. But because you make me feel that there's no point in staying in this mess after doing my best to clean this mess up.

2010-03-30T17:41:00.000+08:00

Sick.

Gonna take my Amath test tomorrow. I don't know why Im kinda scared eventhough I know I'll once again fail. Sian sian sian, looks like I'll never be able to pass my Amath. :(

We use to be very good friends. Until you changed everything. Never once have I thought of being with you. But somehow, during those times that we shared happy smses, went out for movie, you held my hand, buy bananas together, tickled each other, make you choke on your drink, had a long bus ride home, I did change. I was once so confirm that nothing will happen between us. Now i've started liking you, but between us can never be anything more than friends. Now I'll have to F5 and treat you as a Vgf.

Yes. I was at fault. I messed everything up. Things that I've grown used to, people that I've grown fond of, feelings that have always existed... I messed up all of them. Now everything have changed. I don't want to hide, I told you the truth. At that point of time, I just wanted you to know that in me, there were feelings that were shared, there were people that were prioritised.

Now, we are back as friends. And I just want to let you know. I've
never thought of hurting you in any way.

Hear it drip.

2010-03-25T17:03:00.000+08:00

Still anticipating.

Overall, my life's still fine. Getting better each day. You see, that's why never complain that life is bad/sucks/horrible/(whatever that isn't nice).

Have been consistently doing my homework since the start of this week. Big improvement. Starting to get the hang of it. :> Hopefully I'll be able to submit all my overdued Amath homework by te end of this month (which is next week!). I think I won't be able to finish them on time but still, I must at least claim that I wanna finish them, and try to finish them in order to convince everyone that I'm not hopeless. But srsly lah, I'm really not that hopeless.

Well, my chiolicious RED laptop hasn't arrive yet. Getting a little impatient. Hahaha.

Things have been quite smooth sailing these days. Nothing much has changed recently. Oh yah, something changed today. Well, yea...... :>

2010-03-23T18:27:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last updated this space.

Btw, life have been pretty 'jerky' these days. But overall, I think I am/will be able to cope. (We should never say that life's bad) I do get pretty emotional at times, but I do try very hard to control. Maybe cos the things that used to be in place have all been messed up. Sometimes I do stare into the blank space and start digging into my memories and wonder why things have changed so drastically.

I use to wish that my life would be more happening. But now when so much has happened, I would rather lead a boring plain life than all these.

But I've learnt to stop holding onto everything so tightly. I hope things will improve soon.

I'll be back when my laptop reach. Can't wait for chiolicious RED laptop. ;>

2010-03-07T22:31:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for that day.

2010-03-07T22:30:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for the day.

2010-03-05T11:11:00.001+08:00

I'm finally back to blog. To revive this space. Well, I haven't exactly got myself a new laptop, but well I'm @ Tang's house right now. With Yc and Sab. :>

The past few weeks had been pretty hectic. School work, shopping, exams, friends, birthdays, (you can think of it, I have done it. K, not exactly all.)

Mainly,

Granny's birthday.
Shopping with the usuals.
Studying with the usuals.
Common Test 1.
SPA.
EXAMS OVER.

I got back my results for CT1. I didn't met my own/my mum's expectation. I didn't do well for every subject that I got back, well, at least I didn't get the results I wanted to. And fucking stayed up till late night to study. And I can't believe I merely passed my Chemistry. Fuckitty.

My results have been deproving since last year. I don't know what has gotten into me or whatever. I just can't seem to score well anymore.

On my way home yesterday afternoon, I was scolding FUCK all the way, and Tang kept slapping my shoulder for every one time I said FUCK. She's real strong. Srsly. My shoulder did hurt like quite a shit, and her aiming was real good. Same spot everytime. Bulls eye.

Watched Alice In The Wonderland yesterday. :)With babes and one of her sayang. Anw, that movie was kinda boring. But I like that big head red heartshape lipstick red hair mean ugly red queen. Had dinner with Cs, Joseph and Ts. Then home.

Today's Bio SPA. So now we're at Tang's house. Gonna go eat Mac now. And school for band.

2010-02-21T01:26:00.001+08:00

To: That someone who once told me, "Rouying you're the kind who needs someone there for you to rely on most of the time."

(If he can still remember he's the one who said that), I've got to tell you. I've finally learnt to cope on my own. :)

I bet this is good news for both you and I. Hahaha!

2010-02-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

2010-02-13T23:14:00.001+08:00

Well, I've forgotten how long ago are these pictures. But oh, it's within this week which is gonna end in a day's time. :(

Monday was school, Science centre for Body world, home, Vivo, home. Body was awesome with Aline, Elaine and Shanqi. I think we were the noisiest group there. Anyway, the exihibition was totally cool. We saw many testes that afternoon. Vivo to buy my Cny dresses @ night. Totally rushed through the whole mall till 11pm. I shall never do last minute shopping again. :(

Tuesday was, school, Haiti event, home, Town, home, revision for SS test till late night.

Wednesday was school, band (Cny rehearsal), slack with the guys, home, revision for Amath test, fell sick. I was covered with rash for the whole night. It was really itchy and disgusting. Like big patches of mosquito bites.

Thursday was injection, home, eat medicine, sleep, watch tv, town, home. Went for injection in the morning, was worried that the rash wouldn't heal in time before Cny comes. So I chose to have the injection. Well, hurt quite a shit, but was really relieved when Dr Khoo said that it will heal in 48 hours. ;> The rash started forming on my face (WTF) during the afternoon so I didn't go down to Bugis with Gary. The rash healed by evening, head to town. Shop shop shop shop.

Friday, school, Cny performance (woohoo), home, Josephine's party, slack with the guys, home. Met up with the girls @ 3pm to buy Josephine's cake. Gave her a surprise @ her house and went karaoke. Had our dinner there and went to meet Cheeshoon, Joseph, Thianseng and Ziyang. Talk talk talk, and home at 1am. Tired out. Head to bed.

Today was, home the whole day. Was suppose to find Cs to get my facai apple from him. But I was really lazy and spent my day sleeping. Had reunion dinner, and had nice wine. I like wine. Haha, anw gonna baibai @ Jurong west later. :)

Happy Chinese New Year, HUAT HUAT HUAT AH! ;>

Btw, my computer is down now. So I won't be blogging till probably...... 2 weeks later? :( Stalk me on twitter for the time being.

I have an angmoh brother now. Hunkie hunkie! Haha, he just bleached his hair. And of course with my help, he looks super awesome now. He's really brown-blonde right now.

I heard more about you yesterday. I thought I've already known the full details about that day, but no, I was wrong. After 7 months, why are there still things revealed? I use to believe that after we got together, you changed. Changed for the better. But I guess I thought too highly about our r/s. Nothing can change you.